Creating and Enforcing Boundaries

Most put health in a box that is all about fitness and eating healthy, but it is so much more.  It’s about feeding yourself emotionally, mentally and physically, whatever that outlet is.  Mine happens to be creative, art and writing, but as of late I feel as if my time isn’t my own and have not been able to feed my soul in the ways that make me happy.

You see lately I have felt as if my time isn’t my time, it belongs to others and it has made me angry at myself and those that don’t respect boundaries and that is no place to be.  I had broken free of this behavior of giving so much of myself to others that I put myself on the back burner, but as of late I have been falling down the rabbit hole again.

Why do we do things to ourselves that we know will negatively affect our mental and emotional well being?  For myself I find that it’s a matter of having this people pleaser mentality and not wanting people to be angry even if it means that I am miserable.  It also comes from harboring the mental image of how people would react when I would say no.  It negatively impacted me for so long and still does from time to time, especially these days.

Here is the thing: no one is perfect, not myself or you.  We all have these triggers and we move past them and sometimes we find ourselves right back where we started fighting to get out and find that piece of ourselves that we know is there.  I need art and writing…why because they feed my soul, they are things that I am passionate about.  I need to stop putting myself on the back burner and people need to start respecting boundaries.  And if they don’t and they get mad…oh well.  I have come far enough to realize that them being mad  is more to do with their pitfalls than it has to do with me.  I need to live my life for me.